WE'RE GOING TO TOC, BABE! YES!!! got the news at 8:00 a.m. this morning on my way to Vergil. A JVer stopped me and told me that another team had dropped and so my partner and I been accepted into the tournament. :-D Sweet. Very excited.

Also, v. tired. Feel like am living in a dream, not in a good sense, but in the sense that my head is foggy. It's clouded. I need to sleep or something. need a massage; back muscles are all tense. all muscles are v. tense. i need to relax. mind feels very muffled - as if my mind were wearing a sweater on it, a sweater that's not loose enough but actually fits. i hate sweaters that fit - it needs to be big so it's loose and i can move freely in it. my favorite sweater has shrunk the last few time's it was washed.

have had great revelation...what the ideal Significant Other would be. don't ask.

fresno is...the middle of nowhere. it's a place that's trying to be a city, and it's failing.

this page is turning into a log of sorts, sort of an enormous AIM buddy info, rather than the log of thoughts that i wanted it to be. ::sigh::

what is the nature of love? is it an emotion? is it a state of mind? is it biologically based? can love at first sight be real? love at first sight - isn't that then based on looks and superficial apperaances, rather than personality, mind, and spirit? how can that sort of thing last? As time passes, no matter how much wrinkle cream you buy, the outward beauty, the glamour of youth, will fade. flesh sags, skin creases, and hair falls out. yet, sometimes, there's a feeling that one can tell lots of things about people from their appearance, their bearing, etc. in a glance, one might be able to take in several subtle things about the other person, making the possibility of falling in love at first sight more likely and credible.